fail.

okay so this hatius/haitus/hat/whatever-you-call-it thing isn't working out.
in fact, i think i feel worse.
me and my stupid ideas.

okay so maybe i should try to sticking to a post a week.
whatever, i don't really care.

so.
the past few days have been suckish. seriously suckish.
i think i might possibly/am indulging in self-pity/depression/stupidity right now but i seriously need to rant somewhere.
and i think i'm also using the word seriously too much.
and '/'s.
who cares.

recently i've been so easily agitated.
angry at people who seriously, seriously, invade my comfort zone;
people who just rub things in my face and make it so damn obvious;
people who just rip me off;
seriously obnoxious people;
and yeah, whatever makes me angry just makes me angry.
and i hate it. i hate feeling angry. at everything.
on top of it all, i hate hating. it sucks big time.

right now i'm still sorting out my seriously completely messed up emotions.
somehow i don't get myself anymore.

skipped 6D reunion, again.
same excuse, again.
i don't know why i'm doing this :/
imd so much.

this month has been kinda sucky.
i wonder if september would be better.

anyway, holidays coming up.
time to go intend to use it to study and then not do it.

and i everytime i think about it, it feels like a slap in the face and my stomach twists. it feels like someone grabbed me by the neck and shoved my head into the water, and no matter how hasd i stuggle, i can't get out. sometimes, i can even feel the water go into my head.
suck it up, wimp.